I cannot sleep well just because of this killer subject. Indeed, this subject discouraged me a lot to go through this SPM. 2 subjects down and 8 still awaiting. I feel so regret, stupid deep down in my heart with my bahasa paper. If only I manage my time well for the section A, I will finish my karangan on time. I am so sad with my karangan. I only write 4 points. So total 6 paragraphs. But it is compulsory to have 5 points in the karangan. And I just write cincai my last point and conclusion. Idk what I write. -.- T.T idk if I still can get A or even B for my BM. This subject will be my pain forever if I get C or even worse. I already tried my best to score BM. I read thousands of essays. Still, I cant do well in my exam. But, I did got A for my trial. Huhuhuhu..

After finished BM1 paper. I almost cried. I didnt to have any conversation with my friends. I just wanted to be alone. I grabbed my backpack and straight went home. I tried my best to act cool in front of other students. I didn't want them to know I did very terrible in my paper. I walked home with tears. I just need my family. Shoulders to cry on. I wanted to hug them and apologised for I failed write nicely in the paper.

Now I cannot aim for A in my bahasa paper. Though at first that was my aim. I will be so grateful if I GET B.

Now I pray that Jesus will do a miracle for me in my studies. Maybe there's something behind my failure in the paper. I realise my mom and my dad loves me very much. They never give up in giving me motivations. They always pray for me. And the most important thing is I doesn't feel shy to hug my mother anymore. I love her even more. I learn a lesson to put God and family first in every matter. They are my refugee. Nothing is better than them.

My failure is not the end of the world. I still have a long journey in my life. The are more tough and challenging obstacles to overcome next time. I must be strong. Xoxo. Hwaiting with next papers!!

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