Hello! :D The very first post I make for this year 2014 although we're already in April now. I supposedly write a new entry in January right? Honestly, I can't make much effort on blogging on daily basis because I don't have Internet all the time. I need to subscribe Internet first which means I need to take out money from my wallet every time I need Internet despite the fact that i'm not the one who will pay for it usually instead my lovely parents. Poor them. :( Nowadays, Internet is a thing that I can say very essential in a student life. It's so obvious when I want to search for any scholarships. Back to the title.

Why I say it's so unexpected? Straight to the point. I manage to get 9A+ and 1A- in my SPM 2013. The subject that I thought would be a scar forever as I'll maybe get B or C for it turn out in the way that I'm not really expecting much. I GET A+!! Yeahhh,, HIP HIP HOORAYY!!! Thank you Jesus. <3 A- is for my English . geeezz... I know. I write like an English language fool in the section A which was a formal letter to a park administrator. ENGLISH is hard. Maybe for you it's not.. It's just like a piece of cake. But for me, I'm not. It get worse when I try to speak English with other people who are good in English. I need to think for a long time to structure a sentence before I speak it out. The phrasing, sentence structure and my grammar would be all in a mess. And this become a fear in me. Or maybe I'm having English speaking phobia. T.T

I can't keep on ranting on how stupid I am in English. I must take a ladder and climb over the fear walls. Read read read!!!!!! i must overcome my anxiety. :(

CONCENTRATE ON IDEAS THAT I WANT TO EXPRESS NOT ON THE MISTAKE THAT I DO.

Serious >.<

YEAH! happyyy face

Proof :)

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